24-October-2012 Our very 1st arguement..

It's been 26 days of our relationship..3 times outing..2 time saying I love you from me to her..Yesterday night..we argue due to my attitude for being Ego,Selfish,Envy..She yesterday told me that she shed more tears than smiles..She quite disappoint in me i guess..It's hurt..It's really hurt..my previous..my ex..starting to argue with me the same thing at the first time..I feel like things just like starting to rollback again..keep repeating..but she still could be with and tolerate..listen to me..but in the end,we argue so many times and finnaly she betrayed me and cheat to me..thats how i with my ex done..When yesterday she mentioned..

1. Shed more than Tears

2.No girls with work with you if I keep this kind of attitude
3.Didn't trust her

4.I'm Tired

5.Lost faith in her

6.The person I use to know is gone,he leaved me..

7.You're the one who always make trouble

8.I'm the one always think negative

These 8 things she mentioned..every single word..just like a knife keep stab me..8 times..and the knife is not pulling out..stick in..yesterday is the longest moment i ever shed tears for 1 year+ in KL..because I love her i end up like this..because I love her she turn to hate..For me..as I know my own attitude..This realtionship will very hard..either she willing follow me or she will cant patient with my attitude and leave me..Someone like me really not much girls will like I guess..then I just wish a girl that love me who I am..even my characteristic my attitude..my egoistic..my selfishness..my envy..this is what I think..

"I thought..when I enter your life..you need me..is enough.."

Friends and Love..which 1 more important?For the previous me..I choose friends..actually should be TRUE FRIENDS..because true friends will never leave you..I had my true friends so now I choose Love..but then..I still sacrifice not enough and keep getting hurt...You cant get love without sacrifice..But did I?or not?..

For these dew moment..I bet..for a guy like..sure mood getting down..down and down and down untill time passes and hope..she will take those knife out for me and heal it..I will wait for it..and I have to be double face man..since Im hurt..but outisde..I need to show her Im strong..because she said it..

 "2.No girls with work with you if I keep this kind of attitude" 

" 6.The person I use to know is gone,he leaved me.."

I told her once..

"When the night falls and you're in darkness,I will be your moon lighten up a way for and always shine for you"

No..I never leave you..I just drop into darkness and hide myself...and nobody show me the light to get out..

This is my story..I hope you people out there..don't learn my way..because..I'm always bring sadness to people around them..