Sometimes I'm wondering, what is the point if a person keep keeping you promises and broke it and then new and then broke keep happening the same thing and in the end she will just tell you that "It's you that make me break the deal"..A person promises broke by the one she want to show it to?It just mind blown..
Every relationship can't avoid argument,but then happen too often is not good..even when you try hard to make her let go the past and give her a new aim,but then this appear again "It's you that make me break the deal"..I'm confused.."Everything happen with a reason" everyone know this,blaming your boyfriend make you break the deal,and your boyfriend mad without a reason?alright fine..and there goes someone keep think the same spot again..she can mad at herself,doesn't care what it is who it is also fed up about it just because I posted a? a status on myself facebook page..and now she can do this kind of things and doesn't care what we had a deal and said it's your fault..whenever she mad these stuff just happen..seriously?and i hate the most is she claim that "You are the biggest,what you said is always right,since when you got wrong one?"what the hell suppose related to these things?I'm talking about the deal you didn't do it..deal is a deal,promise is a promise,when you say it you do it..
Being let you said this way,ok fine too..let you..whole day doing project..stressed out..because of radiation i guess,face too much at the screen..going home raining some more..In the train I asked her to ring me..and then I say.."Hmp" I keep on repeating that..until 1 level she fed up..well..at that time I'm only think.."see what she can do,give her a test what she said before" because it's sudden pop in my head so decided to do so..guess what?she mad,I totally straight say "let's don't chat..because you are angry.." she said no. At that time what I think only focus on what she said to me before..I admit i kinda over in this situation because to test someone and eventually I mad too..
Until reach my home nearby,It's drizzling.. I just stand there and drip under the rain..the feeling is so sad and hurtful..I want to say it but I can't..I felt so disappointing..the day I told her "from now on,we what kind of deal also no need anymore..I just want you not to be attitude this way and stay quiet"..because many of the promises she can't even keep in mind,so i decided to tell her don't have to anymore..I wish both of us good and not pressuring her..so i decide just ONE promises and my priority..
Overall this kind of argument..I reached my limit..so I don't want to shout to her and just reply her in a very down and sad mood,but then she only will keep shout at me about I'm the 1 made her like this..one of the reason I don't want to talk about it anymore it's i lost faith in her about promises..and then I really hate her attitude this way..no matter how many time argument she say she wont..and she burst all thing as she like..
The ending of this point is..I have a weak brain/head/nerve I don't know whats the problem..I can't handle stress..If the problem I can deal with it..it's ok..I do it..no pain..whenever the problem about relationships..starting it's ok..and then continue with someone attitude so arrogant..and not listening..because of too frustrated to think how to tell her..it makes me feel my brain want to pop out soon..I will get migraine..mostly is a minor headache..and there surprises..migraine came and I got no solution how to heal migraine..I will just getting pain at my right eye,neck,vomit,cold sweat and struggle atleast 3-4 hour..It is very suffering to had migraine..I told her "I don't want to fight you,if continue like this it is just nothing good to me" when you see this kind of message aren't it just a reminder to you? that I easily get this pain?yet she said before to me "I don't want you in this way,I don't want you to suffer,I don't want you to pain,I PROMISE <<<<< not to make you migraine.."that's what she said..the message I am saying is to remind her..argument do me nothing good,end up only I will suffer the most..and then she give you this
"You deserved it"
"You used your migraine to threaten me"
All this time I pain in this relationship..a very well said from someone you keep forgiving and loving her..wish the best for her..give the best try the best for her "You deserved this pain"..I truly tell you that..I totally heart shattered in this message..and I don't even wish to talk anymore so I just end up with.."I deserved it"..Now is a message to cheer myself up..I have no regret on how to treat her..I dare to say I give her my best and everything I really can..
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