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Sunday, 17 November 2013

17 November 2013 - I am deserved it..

Sometimes I'm wondering, what is the point if a person keep keeping you promises and broke it and then new and then broke keep happening the same thing and in the end she will just tell you that "It's you that make me break the deal"..A person promises broke by the one she want to show it to?It just mind blown..

Every relationship can't avoid argument,but then happen too often is not good..even when you try hard to make her let go the past and give her a new aim,but then this appear again "It's you that make me break the deal"..I'm confused.."Everything happen with a reason" everyone know this,blaming your boyfriend make you break the deal,and your boyfriend mad without a reason?alright fine..and there goes someone keep think the same spot again..she can mad at herself,doesn't care what it is who it is also fed up about it just because I posted a? a status on myself facebook page..and now she can do this kind of things and doesn't care what we had a deal and said it's your fault..whenever she mad these stuff just happen..seriously?and i hate the most is she claim that "You are the biggest,what you said is always right,since when you got wrong one?"what the hell suppose related to these things?I'm talking about the deal you didn't do it..deal is a deal,promise is a promise,when you say it you do it..

Being let you said this way,ok fine too..let you..whole day doing project..stressed out..because of radiation i guess,face too much at the screen..going home raining some more..In the train I asked her to ring me..and then I say.."Hmp" I keep on repeating that..until 1 level she fed up..well..at that time I'm only think.."see what she can do,give her a test what she said before" because it's sudden pop in my head so decided to do so..guess what?she mad,I totally straight say "let's don't chat..because you are angry.." she said no. At that time what I think only focus on what she said to me before..I admit i kinda over in this situation because to test someone and eventually I mad too..

Until reach my home nearby,It's drizzling.. I just stand there and drip under the rain..the feeling is so sad and hurtful..I want to say it but I can't..I felt so disappointing..the day I told her "from now on,we what kind of deal also no need anymore..I just want you not to be attitude this way and stay quiet"..because many of the promises she can't even keep in mind,so i decided to tell her don't have to anymore..I wish both of us good and not pressuring her..so i decide just ONE promises and my priority..

Overall this kind of argument..I reached my limit..so I don't want to shout to her and just reply her in a very down and sad mood,but then she only will keep shout at me about I'm the 1 made her like this..one of the reason I don't want to talk about it anymore it's i lost faith in her about promises..and then I really hate her attitude this way..no matter how many time argument she say she wont..and she burst all thing as she like..

The ending of this point is..I have a weak brain/head/nerve I don't know whats the problem..I can't handle stress..If the problem I can deal with it..it's ok..I do it..no pain..whenever the problem about relationships..starting it's ok..and then continue with someone attitude so arrogant..and not listening..because of too frustrated to think how to tell her..it makes me feel my brain want to pop out soon..I will get migraine..mostly is a minor headache..and there surprises..migraine came and I got no solution how to heal migraine..I will just getting pain at my right eye,neck,vomit,cold sweat and struggle atleast 3-4 hour..It is very suffering to had migraine..I told her "I don't want to fight you,if continue like this it is just nothing good to me" when you see this kind of message aren't it just a reminder to you? that I easily get this pain?yet she said before to me "I don't want you in this way,I don't want you to suffer,I don't want you to pain,I PROMISE <<<<< not to make you migraine.."that's what she said..the message I am saying is to remind her..argument do me nothing good,end up only I will suffer the most..and then she give you this 

   "You deserved it"
 "You used your migraine to threaten me"

All this time I pain in this relationship..a very well said from someone you keep forgiving and loving her..wish the best for her..give the best try the best for her "You deserved this pain"..I truly tell you that..I totally heart shattered in this message..and I don't even wish to talk anymore so I just end up with.."I deserved it"..Now is a message to cheer myself up..I have no regret on how to treat her..I dare to say I give her my best and everything I really can..

Friday, 20 September 2013

20th September 2013 Konichiwa! Kombawa!! Nandeska?!! :D

Helloo~~~~~~! It's been a long time! Finally had the urge to move to write something about my 26th August 2013 went back to Sandakan! It's my hometown. First! I'm going to complain about the day before i reach take flight to Sandakan, 25th of august I went there earlier because I have to overnight in airport due to no transportation in between early morning..my flight is at 6.25am of 26th,I reached at 10pm something on 25th,So i wait there until morning 5.45am and the gate is finally opened,it was soooo excited! Because it has been how long?like half of a year?doesn't matter! I'm homesick! So until the time I have to fly! annnnnd It's broken down..yeah..the plane tire got some problem..so I have to delay 1 HOUR! HEY! IT'S 1 HOUR! and here another surprise, an announcement suddenly said that "Plane to Sandakan, we will change both the tire,so the flight time will delay till 8am,sorry for the inconvenient" WTH?!...Seriously?! YOU! DELAY! MY! FLIGHT! BY! 2! HOURS! SERIOUSLY?! I AM SOOOOOOO MAD! and the perfect thing is, I watch the sky from dark turn shine and bright,here some nice view for you.
See that?A VERY NICE SUNSET :) .. and this is for you Airasia..GO DIE >:0
 
Ok,so firstly I down from my plane,I thought my mom would come to fetch me,well,who knows?suddenly my dad appeared =3=..nervous nervous..chill kc chill...relax..
Dad : So what do you think about your future after finish study?
Me : OwO OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG...So fast ask this?! Erm...(and our conversation continue)

So mum gave me a call that she at my grandma house,while my big brother is going back to KL at 6.45pm,mum ask me to come and visit grandma and big bro,so dad fetch me until my grandma place.I reached there and 1st thing my bro say "See?long hair with Korean boy style". Grandpa said "Aiyayayaya what a handsome and big guy! Taller than your bro ah!". Grandma just keep quiet because she got early stage of Alzheimer disease...neh those will lost memory 1 leh..yeah..and here goes my bro girlfriend..kinda meaty and chubby,quite friendly too,grandpa and mom keep talk about when wedding =.= it gave people stress you know?Oh well,just those in my grandma house.

So on the way to go home,mom brought me go eat something,I eat Ham choi mihun (Salted vege vermicelli?) I guess that what they call in english XD..Mmmm~ Tasty! and a cup of Hot Teh C (Tea with condense milk and sugar).Thats for my brunch.Reached home take some rest, unpacking things..
 
It's dinner time! My very 1st dinner with Dad and Mom~ I took the picture of out Sabah seafood,its big and fresh!
 after dinner,suddenly..POP! No electric! NOOOOOOOOOO~~ dad say,let's go to drink coffee better,so i say sure! but mom say want to stay at home to care my puppy!so we go and find one coffee shop,this shop is name Cottage Brew~
I ordered White coffee with mocha?but it not even have the taste of chocolate inside :( . Dad ordered some weird coffee either,but he said it's good,and that is tiramisu,well made not too creamy nor too bitter.That's for my 1st day! yay! :D

2nd day of journey!

As usual, I will wake up early to accompany my two old parent have a morning tea!
It's tomato soup mihun,the level of concentrated tomato is really delicious! It's raw tomato alright?not the ketchup one.. It's in reddish colour! It taste like heaven! Omg I'm drooling.. Feels like wan some more now..yeah! that cup is Teh C!

And this other 2 plate it's my dinner! SEE THAT CLAMP?! IT'S FROM JAPAN! It taste soooooo delicious! plus my mom cooking skill make the clamp even taste better! Yummy! and actually I skip my daily routine,it's because I really got nothing to do at home :x haha~ sit at the living and watch tv thats all!!
Here is my puppy! GIGI Chia Gi Gi!
"Stop taking my picture of eating! I'm not ready yet! Stupid brother!" hiak hiak hiak hiak! xD



OK,enough with the puppy,this is my bed~ actually..it's my sis bed..I usually sleep in my parent room >w<
This is my dinner! Pork hand with..black vinegar! Mmmmmm delicious!!
total got 7 cake here,all these cake is bought with half price! But some taste not good,yuck! >_<
This is bak kut teh! before we on the way to Kota Kinabalu for holiday,we stop by here to taste some new open shop near Mile 8! Taste not bad ,but pricey :( 
Journey to Kota Kinabalu,we reached the rest stop and I saw a bunch of this in the aquarium..yiii it's so..slimy..goosebumps..
This is Yong tau fu! It's the first day and its my 1st dish in Kota Kinabalu for how many years?almost 1 years i guess! Yippee!

This is Salted vege Seafood mihun! This is really really awesome! I forgot the name of this store but it's freaking delicious! they even have the fish belly! It's hard to have a fish belly nowadays you know?! Yummy!
 After eat breakfast,we went to a shopping centre name Merdeka, and i saw this big kitty,so i took a picture to my darling hehe,meanwhile i bought a purple T-Shirt! It's just RM10!

 after walk Merdeka shopping centre,we went to another shopping centre name CentrePoint! and at there,walk halfway mom and dad says kinda tired,so we just rest here at CoffeeBean,and dad complaint "3 drink and 1 bread cost me Rm50 ady,so not worth" haha.
and on the way back,we eat our lunch! It's beef meat mix,but didn't take that picture,here some banana~ Malaysia most common snack "Goreng Pisang" it's fried banana~Seriously,I at KL(Kuala Lumpur) never had seen yet :O so i back Sabah i bought 2 bag plactic, 1 piece is Rm0.10 so i bought 2 bag, it only cost me Rm2. It's cheap! :D


This 3 dishes is my dinner,and that will be my last dinner in Kota Kinabalu,because tomorrow I"m heading back to Sandakan!
1st dishes is Salted vege seafood soup (yeah i know there is many salted vege) HAHA! it taste good! and full of nutrition!
2nd dishes is kangkung?or potato trunk?I don't know what they call,but it taste very crunchy,and fry with belacan! mmmmm~ Delicious~!
3rd dishes is the most unbelievable dishes, usually we fried chicken fish or anything,and we pour the sauce into it,it will turn watery and not crunchy right?but this 1,its a fish belly,fried and put the special sauce on it,the skin SO DAMN CRUNCHY! AND INSIDE IS SOFT AND SMOOTH!~ It feels like magical dishes! this dish is the best!
 Rise and Shine! It's sunday! We're going to KK every sunday street! It's call Gaya Street! It fulls of stuff and souvenir! this is the morning breakfast we had before we walk the street!


See this cute puppy! So cute!
this too! They all so lovely! Too bad i didn't take the shoot of the street, too bust look at those puppy >.<
This is Mount.Kundasang,It's a natural cold air phenomena! I like this place very much! Wonder will there be a shopping center next time! It would be great!
Look at these flower,they look so beautiful and healthy!
 This is the street!
and this is we call DURIAN! It's our local fruit! on the way back to Sandakan,there are many kampung that they sell these durians,this is just fresh pick from the trees!! Yes! I'm eating it while on my journey! the smell the taste! unforgettable! But,some people felt that it stinks,smelly,but I never feel that since I'm a kid,how come it will stinks? :( ??
 Alright! I've reached Sandakan! SOOO HUNGRY! LET'S EAT! :D
 It's my dinner on that day! did you see something big?YES YOU ARE! WONDER WHAT SIZE IS THAT?
 It's a same length of my spoon!
 even without the shell it is still BIG! plus my mom cooking style! Holy Heaven! It's paradise! <3
I show to my darling,she like to eat prawn,well,I bet she is drooling over already! xD I promised her i will bring some to her next time hehehe Love you darling!
After dinner,sure some local fruits! It call Darab! Why do they call darab? GOOD QUESTION! The answer is I don't know either! But who cares about that! >w< It's nice to eat! taste awesome!
It's bak kut teh again! It's my lunch time,so usually my dad after 12pm,he will call us whether we want to eat lunch or not,OF COURSE WANT! >W<
 This is tea time! Tuna Cheese toast and Teh C again!
 This is Pork belly and pork intestine fry with black sweet sauce! Ofcourse it's delicious! ^_^
 Owh by the way! I brought my darling a handcraft from Kota Kinabalu! Hope she like it!
 Ok this is what we call Asam fish! I don't know why only my mum could make this dishes!! it's sour enough and sweet enough! won't too sour neither too sweet! How come?! MOM!! TEACH ME!! >w<
 This is Siu mai! Mom bought it for me! T^T Mom the best!
 Wowowowow! This is also salted vege mihun again! But this time is not reddish! But plain colour with condensed milk! WOW! The smell is very nice! even when it is in your mouth! wew!! Delicious dao~!!By the way,this place is open by my friend..well,my friend friend..i think..I know who he is he don't know who I am,and I met my 2 friends there too! He say " Damn,you're handsome ah" hohohoho!! Of course! :X

Mom knew that I can't celebrate mooncake festival with them on 19th of September..because I'm going back at 6th..So mom purposely go ask where got pandan flavour mooncake,and she wan buy for me..but then it's not pandan,but it's ok mom!! I love it too! I love everything you buy and make for me <3
 Last time I won't buy such drink due to it's expensive price,but that day really don't know why..I bought it and taste it..It taste EXACTLY same with my childhood chocolate flavour! I feel want to cry! It taste all of my memories inside T_T
 The night before I go back to KL,my church friends and pastor have a farewell party for me,and got a brother is having a birthday too! So i ordered Mango yogurt,It taste good! But seriously,this ice cream shop it is worst now,those worker really bad,it force us to accept something that we said we canceled it.Well there is no point to argue with them,I rather i pay the extra and enjoy with them better.
 This is before i go to the ice cream party :D Dad brought us to his friend's restaurant,well it taste really good,and cheap too! Quite good quality and quantity restaurant!
Surprise! It's a new family member! His name call Happy! Happy Chia Hoi Sem! Hoi sem means Happy,and Chia is our family surname! It suit him,because he bring us alot happiness even he just in our house not even 1 day! and he is HYPER active! Run here and there! cute! Happy zai! Kor kor miss you! <3 Grow big and be healthy ya!!
This is really my final meal before my flight at 4.35pm..This porridge very different,the porridge in the mouth like melt or destroy easily,I don't know how to describe it,but mom said,if you want the porridge this way,you can make the porridge 1st,and leave it whole day the next morning,and it will turn like this! Well! I will give it a try next time! hehehe!!
 This is wet kueh teow! But in KL they don't have it,they category it as "Wat Dan Hor"..it's same but mixed with egg,mostly many places also call that as wat dan hor,but it's different in my opinion :(
 This roasted pork and ..fried pork?what they call?It taste really delicious! Especially the roasted one! The amount of honey is not too much and the meat also wont too fat! Really great dishes too!
These is Dim sum,got siu mai,got chicken feet,got beef ball (I can't eat! T_T mom don't let because I got some fungal skin problem!) and pai guat! pork rib?I think so! haha

Ok then! That's all for my journey back to hometown! In between there got few stuff but If i want to mention about it,I guess this post won't finish until tomorrow haha,this can of juice,It's energy drink,because I reach the plane I felt tired and like migrain coming due to lack of sleep,so count on this,taste very nice! Maybe because I like orange haha,It's a mix of orange and passion fruits!

That's all! Have fun on every moment! and miss parent every second! Love parents! Love darling! Hate myself :( 

See ya! >w<