Today I conclude that is a total "FAILURE" day..
Today rain heavily so I just stay in the house,I'm suppose to go out buy some food and then back home,due to rain so I didn't go out,untill noon She had done with her exam and she is going back to her home today,we chat until the rain like gonna stop then she go out as soon as possible from her hostel and walk to nearby LRT station.So this time we stop chat and I'm very boring..Suddenly a picture from Facebook that my friend shared,It's about Origami(art of folding paper) 4 leaf Clover..She like 4 leaf clover! So i've decided to make her one! So...do some research...and take few piece of paper and do it. Taada..It's done!
Here is the picture
Yeah..It's not pretty..Somehow it's look plain..Before I show her this..I asked whether is she like to see a normal one..or the pretty one..she said both..then I showed her.I though It will give her a suprise like.."wah!" or "Wow"...somehow it not work,her response really just simply "Thanks anyway"..I regret to show her this..I rather to make it more perfectly then only show her..I'm not sure is whether is I felt she not appreciate it or she really felt this one really to plain to ask for a surprise...I just dissapointed in myself. Yet she said she was surprise..
After that problem comes..No,I guess it is not a problem,is the "Thoughts" came..there are so many negative picture appeared in my mind,Like recently due to I paid lots of money to Tmnet,This month activities ruined..My outing,expenses,and including my food..all gone INSTANT..But these kind of thing is my fault at the start,I just can blame myself.
Now about the problem between both of us..due to the clover dissapointment,It effect my whole mood for the day..the problem is when I say "Nevermind..It's not nice also..nothing special at all" I wish she could say that "It's special for me,because it is made from you" I was hoping something like this..Yet is it I'm think too much?because her response just like"He said he is ok then he must be ok" this kind of thing really make my mind blow up soon.After that she ask me about computer stuffs..well atleast I still got things that I could let her depends on :(
She telling me that is it she did something wrong?or she said something that hurt me?I just can't blame on her..we're not in relationship yet,even she speak like that she still got her right there,what for I'm getting mad or hurt.Now I turn up like her boyfriend..anything she said sure will effected me,actually some things really NO BIG DEAL AT ALL,but that who I am..I'm sensitive..I'm insecure..I've lost my faith..yet now I gained my faith but I over self confidence..and then I explained to her..then she went to her dinner and no comment at all..I guess I made her moody also..
Today really...YOU SUCH A FAILURE KA CHUN! REALLY FAIL! WHAT ARE YOU THINKING!..Thats the thing happen today..
I'm sorry little angel..I'm not a perfect neither I'm a good or really nice for you..I just did something stupid today..
Today rain heavily so I just stay in the house,I'm suppose to go out buy some food and then back home,due to rain so I didn't go out,untill noon She had done with her exam and she is going back to her home today,we chat until the rain like gonna stop then she go out as soon as possible from her hostel and walk to nearby LRT station.So this time we stop chat and I'm very boring..Suddenly a picture from Facebook that my friend shared,It's about Origami(art of folding paper) 4 leaf Clover..She like 4 leaf clover! So i've decided to make her one! So...do some research...and take few piece of paper and do it. Taada..It's done!
Here is the picture
Yeah..It's not pretty..Somehow it's look plain..Before I show her this..I asked whether is she like to see a normal one..or the pretty one..she said both..then I showed her.I though It will give her a suprise like.."wah!" or "Wow"...somehow it not work,her response really just simply "Thanks anyway"..I regret to show her this..I rather to make it more perfectly then only show her..I'm not sure is whether is I felt she not appreciate it or she really felt this one really to plain to ask for a surprise...I just dissapointed in myself. Yet she said she was surprise..
After that problem comes..No,I guess it is not a problem,is the "Thoughts" came..there are so many negative picture appeared in my mind,Like recently due to I paid lots of money to Tmnet,This month activities ruined..My outing,expenses,and including my food..all gone INSTANT..But these kind of thing is my fault at the start,I just can blame myself.
Now about the problem between both of us..due to the clover dissapointment,It effect my whole mood for the day..the problem is when I say "Nevermind..It's not nice also..nothing special at all" I wish she could say that "It's special for me,because it is made from you" I was hoping something like this..Yet is it I'm think too much?because her response just like"He said he is ok then he must be ok" this kind of thing really make my mind blow up soon.After that she ask me about computer stuffs..well atleast I still got things that I could let her depends on :(
She telling me that is it she did something wrong?or she said something that hurt me?I just can't blame on her..we're not in relationship yet,even she speak like that she still got her right there,what for I'm getting mad or hurt.Now I turn up like her boyfriend..anything she said sure will effected me,actually some things really NO BIG DEAL AT ALL,but that who I am..I'm sensitive..I'm insecure..I've lost my faith..yet now I gained my faith but I over self confidence..and then I explained to her..then she went to her dinner and no comment at all..I guess I made her moody also..
Today really...YOU SUCH A FAILURE KA CHUN! REALLY FAIL! WHAT ARE YOU THINKING!..Thats the thing happen today..
I'm sorry little angel..I'm not a perfect neither I'm a good or really nice for you..I just did something stupid today..
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