29-August-2012 What's your problem?

What's my problem?That's the question..Why do you always do the same thing,you said you won't follow the past attitude,now you did the same thing to her again..You said that you won't do the same thing to her like last time,and yet you did it again! and again! What the hell wrong with you?! Can't you just be more understanding?!Can't you be more playfull?Can't you moody lesser?You just causing trouble in your life!You're not understand her at all! Being like an asshole all the time! Small matter you made it bigger,Happy matter you've made it sad ending..EVERY SINGLE TIME YOU DID IT!

Nobody will go your own way..why do you expect much more from her if she don't have the experience at all,you should have show her how it's look like,but then both of you not even in relationship,what for you said something like that! She told you! SHE TOLD YOU! She don't know how to express her feeling! Why you keep forgetting about this point! Think before you speak it! If you still don't change youtself nobody will care for you,they will just leave you,like the previous one..because it's all your fault..

You're hopeless....

23-August-2012 It's Kitty~!!!

Hello~~ It's...Thursday!! Every Monday and Thursday my house nearby have a "Night Market" it's been a long long long long time I've go to  the night market! I will always buy a Spicy Chicken Chop from the night market! after that,of course my favourite drink!>~< It's SOYA BEAN~!!! YUMMEH! While I'm finding my food,Guess what I found?It's.. a GLOWING HELLO KITTY! :DD IT's cheap! But I don't wanna tell you whats the price! haha! wan see how it's look like?here some picture,and the most special is..It's GLOW IN 7 COLOURS!! WEW!

So...The point is..I'm not kind of like..favour these stuff,but she like it! and after being with her a period..I found that,I like Hello Kitty too! haha! But i guess it's because I like her,and so I'm accepting everything she like too i guess? ^_^ recently she is having an exam..Of course I got cheer for her! Wondering she want the glowing kitty or not?I help her keep it untill the day I meet her again..haha! Recently holiday stay at home, nothing special happen,and today is almost about her.I'm SO MISS HER~~!!!

That's all for today then! Have a good day and Happy Raya~!!! Eat more eat more! Eat untill ur tummy bloat(means like a ball) haha! xD

19-August-2012 Cooking day~!! :D

Let's the Rain gone and Let the Sunshines Shine~!! :D

It's means..Let the bad things flew away~and let the good things come! ^_^

Yesterday I'm went to stock up my fridge food haha,I've bought..

4x Cucumber

1x Loaf of Bread

2x Pack of maggie

1x BIG BAG OF NUGGET

1x Bottle of Ketchup

1x Bottle of maggie soy sauce

After bought all those things,go home and put it at the right place..then i phone my mum to ask how to cook the CUCUMBER~!!!!!

1ST! You prepare the cucumber!

2nd! You cut all the skin,and scratch all the thing at the middle of cucumber!

3rd! Cut into pieces!!

Then the result.....no need see the result! >~< It's fine! haha! 1st time make ma! So..I can say is 4 star!! HOHOHO

But today LOOK!! LOOK AT THE PLATE!! Look nice?! Delicious?! It's NUGGET!!! Did you see the love shape? <3 :D

The love nugget is I eat behalf of my little angel :) hehe

Well haha these few days feel so normal and not so stressfull about,so it's a sunshine week! :D Selamat Hari Raya! Have a Happy ramadhan ! 

16-August-2012 What am I thinking?

Today I conclude that is a total "FAILURE" day..

Today rain heavily so I just stay in the house,I'm suppose to go out buy some food and then back home,due to rain so I didn't go out,untill noon She had done with her exam and she is going back to her home today,we chat until the rain like gonna stop then she go out as soon as possible from her hostel and walk to nearby LRT station.So this time we stop chat and I'm very boring..Suddenly a picture from Facebook that my friend shared,It's about Origami(art of folding paper) 4 leaf Clover..She like 4 leaf clover! So i've decided to make her one! So...do some research...and take few piece of paper and do it. Taada..It's done!

Here is the picture 



Yeah..It's not pretty..Somehow it's look plain..Before I show her this..I asked whether is she like to see a normal one..or the pretty one..she said both..then I showed her.I though It will give her a suprise like.."wah!" or "Wow"...somehow it not work,her response really just simply "Thanks anyway"..I regret to show her this..I rather to make it more perfectly then only show her..I'm not sure is whether is I felt she not appreciate it or she really felt this one really to plain to ask for a surprise...I just dissapointed in myself. Yet she said she was surprise..

After that problem comes..No,I guess it is not a problem,is the "Thoughts" came..there are so many negative picture appeared in my mind,Like recently due to I paid lots of money to Tmnet,This month activities ruined..My outing,expenses,and including my food..all gone INSTANT..But these kind of thing is my fault at the start,I just can blame myself.

Now about the problem between both of us..due to the clover dissapointment,It effect my whole mood for the day..the problem is when I say "Nevermind..It's not nice also..nothing special at all" I wish she could say that "It's special for me,because it is made from you" I was hoping something like this..Yet is it I'm think too much?because her response just like"He said he is ok then he must be ok" this kind of thing really make my mind blow up soon.After that she ask me about computer stuffs..well atleast I still got things that I could let her depends on :(

She telling me that is it she did something wrong?or she said something that hurt me?I just can't blame on her..we're not in relationship yet,even she speak like that she still got her right there,what for I'm getting mad or hurt.Now I turn up like her boyfriend..anything she said sure will effected me,actually some things really NO BIG DEAL AT ALL,but that who I am..I'm sensitive..I'm insecure..I've lost my faith..yet now I gained my faith but I over self confidence..and then I explained to her..then she went to her dinner and no comment at all..I guess I made her moody also..

Today really...YOU SUCH A FAILURE KA CHUN! REALLY FAIL! WHAT ARE YOU THINKING!..Thats the thing happen today..
I'm sorry little angel..I'm not a perfect neither I'm a good or really nice for you..I just did something stupid today..

14-August-2012 A special "Normal" day

Today I've class that I most scare in this semester,The subject name is called."Relational Database System" the name already show u that is all about Database System,what is database system?It's a system that contain alot of data.Example,A bank how they store those transaction?how they manage?how to list so many user?how to check which account is whose?what is the amount of money in every user account?how they transfer money?..Have wonder before?haha and now I'm learning about how to create a data management system or can say it as Information storage?WEW! Bluur is it?! This short semester I totally don't understand a TINY BIT of it at all..So i count on my assigment then! But today the lecturer gave us tips,hope it 's really help!

After class,as my every class I finish routine,YAM CHA!(High tea/eat something)~ YAY~!! EAT EAT EAT~! With my one friend,I eat black pepper chicken again as usual! It is really tasty You know! >~< and a big cup of TEH AIS~! yummeh~! ^_^ eat and chat,eat and chat again,eat and chat again and again! Done with the food,so we continue chat then,chat about what?Hmmmm It's about our college friends,those like who always don't attend classes,copy other people assignments,keep ask you what to do,It's like someone very annoying and hopeless one! But one of the thing I hate among friends is..Play Ladies Heart..as known as PLAYBOY.If we talk about having a relationship and broke up,It's ok,but then my case is about,He slept with the girl and he just threw her away when he found another..what kind of beast is that??Not only the ladies lose her body to him,It also lose all the property of herself to him too,such as money?time?we can conclude as

SHE GAVE EVERTHING TO SOMEONE SHE THOUGHT SHE FOUND THE RIGHT GUY!IN THE END SHE BEEN THREW OUT LIKE A RUBBISH.

It's unforgiveable! But..it's nothing we can do about it,got a phrase is it? "Mind your own bussiness".

We chat from 11pm untill 4pm though! >~< Too much to chat! LOL! But thats how I always did after my classes xD kinda enjoy i can say,but sometimes I feel lonely though if I'm eat alone :( feel like nobody is here with me..Nah~ Nevermind!

Its 4pm already! She today finish exam at 4pm! So...Sms her! ^_^ I on my way to home also,in LRT..i sent to her

Me: "My kawaii (her name) doing what ah?studying?"
She : When did I turn to kawaii?what time?and what date?
Me : When?everytime lor,Where?In my heart lor
She : (didn't reply)

The I guess she now reach her hostel already,as I reached my house front door,go in and open my lappy,eh?she inbox me at Facebook,haha thats how we save our credit i guess,due to our channel 1 is Digi 1 is Maxis..

Previous day..she is so lovely..she is adorable..I tell her..I wan to cuddle her..pat her head..nom nom her hand..hug..It was fun even though she rejecting..But its just..I wish I could give her some affection..I don't how to say but she tell me "Wait the time we together first.." these words...made me feel like wish it came true faster..But when I think about myself..I can't even take care my own bussiness,I'm not a very good guy in responsibility but I'm trying! Like my mum said "if you can't even take care yourself,how are you going to take care your girlfriend?" ..She was right! I shouldn't rush things..I wish when she is hurt,I could do something for her.

Little angel.. :)

We had an argument previous day too! Is that an argument?I also not so sure bout it,she said she gone far far away already..Firstly I thought she is playing,I continue play with her..until she said something like " If I gone..don't regret.." the word really made me feel really lack of safeness..I don't know what to reply,so i asked her is it she serious or playing with me,she said she was playing,and suddenly I burst out my anger and tell her that "I dont like to play these kind of joke!" She tell that she don't know that I was serious..then I just stay quiet and don't know what to do..she said this to me..

"Ok ok now serious,I will always stay by your side..won't leave you"

I laughed..haha..and tears of joy(a little! >:( Im not a cry baby!)..I'm so glad she said that to me..ain't she lovely?

That's all for today then!

8th,9th and 10th..3days without Internet connection!

These few days no INTERNET CONNECTION! So can't update my bloggie :)
8th,Today woke up so boring! and it's 2nd day without her..What she doing? is she doing well?did she eat 3 meal a day? So miss her! >~<

9th, Woke up still the same mood but today got a big thing happen....I went to tmnet and ask the amount of the bill i owe..guess what?Its..rm800++ I need to pay rm 679 to activated the line..HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO PAY THE AMOUNT OF MONEY..Then..i tell my parent..then they say..they will see how..In the end dad bank in rm1k to me then I used the rm600 and I add myself rm100.. 
To daddy..

I'm so sorry...due to my management so FAIL...I've made such a mess and made you pay so much money for me..although you're ask me not to blame myself,take it as a experience..BUT what wrong is wrong! I will be a better son in future..Promise ok? :) Love you~



10th,IT'S 2 DAYS PAST! SO I CAN FIND HER LUH!!! BUT STILL NO INTERNET CONNECTION! So I sms her! She glad that i find her though ^_^ I'm so happy! Even though I'm moody but I'm fine as long as I with her...
That's mostly for those 3 days!

For today! Bad things happen!
1stly : Food poison!

I don't know why,I ate biscuit that put at home almost 3 month i guess?I don't know its already expired or what thing..Then i ate 2 slice of bread..Thats all for yesterday night! i don't know why today woke up..My Stomach pain like...TWISTING...I went to toilet almost 5 time...hand shake leg shake...sit at the chair..find my angel chat T^T~ I need her~

2nd :  Internet connection!

My internet connection STILL not work yet! It said 24 hour! But over 24 hour already! Then the technician came not even 10 second then my modem turn to YELLOW LINE @@" walao play me meh?! Ishhhh.

3rd : Laptop!

My laptop graphic on the game keep laggy! So sad! Not my laptop problem! It's the game problem! >:(

Big news!

Today chat chat with my little angel..She today really different..She listen what I said uh,I mean like if I say Don't she really Don't so good~ She so lovely~ She today finnaly express her feeling toward me she said"She miss him"...SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY~ >~< But I miss you everyday! but she make me abit moody just now :\ HMP! I said I want to bring her some of my Sabah local food..She reject me! Hmp! :\ 

And now I'm having voice chat with my best buddies! 1 at sabah 1 at Miri 1 at johor 1 at KL..Eventhough we far apart..But our friendship will last untill end of our life..But..my jaw very tired..Keep laugh since 6pm+ untill now,So fun and happy~What we chat?Bleh! Don't tell you! >~<

That's all for today! Have a nice day~! ^_^

7-August-2012 The 1st day you're not by my side..

Today went to class late again..late half hour,reach classroom the lecturer says " Owh,what a good timing,we just finish our chapter". Then I'm sooooooooooo no mood LOL,but no due to i missed the chapter.So i just sit down and listen to lecturer continue his class untill 12am..He ask us go to the lab,but then...HAHA! ALL RUN INCLUDING ME XD! Then this guy came and ask me...

Random guy : Hey bro,do you play dota?like join tournament?

Me : Hmmm,well i do play,but not with online gamers though.

Random guy : You knw, I joined the previous dota tournament and won the prize rm5K..

Me : (So?...) Owh~ haha~ Thats nice~ well! Congratz!

Random guy : Do you want to join us? We got organize a tournament coming soon!

Me : Erm...nope! Not interest,Thanks anyway.

Random Guy : But!

Me : Eh Firdaus!(my friend) Jom balik la! (Run!)

Well! Get a life bro! Stay infront of the lappy only ==" Lame~

Then It's lunch time~ Ate black pepper chicken! Yummy~! Eat then chat with friend untill around 1pm++ then I go home ~ So boring at college! Reach home until now do nothing~

Today is the 1st day without you little angel...She said "Let's play a game' and I'm wondering what kind of game..She said " Let's play a game that you cant find me in 48 hours" OMG.........why? she said "I wan to study.." So I promised her though :)

Little angel..How you doing today?Got eat 3 meals or not?Anything happen or not?I'm Sooooo miss you~

Thats all for today~ Miss you!!! <3

6-August-2012 Sorry for the late post~! >~< Recently facing assignments!

Hello~It has been 3 days I didn't update my bloggie~But nothing particular special though because I'm busying with my 8 JOURNALS,7 SHORT STORIES,7 SUMMARIES,7 VOCABULARY! OMG~!!! IT WAS SO FRUSTRATING~! But today I passed up ^_^ Weeee cheers! and a good news is TOMORROW IS OUR LAST CLASS! AND WE'RE GONNA HOLIDAY UNTIL 27TH OF AUGUST THAT IS OUR FINAL EXAM! WOOOOOHOOO~! READY TO WAR! >~< What also not yet revision!

Today is a Very Happy day! is VERY ok?Why?Because!

1ST : I FINISHED MY ALL ASSIGNMENTS!

2ND : TODAY I BUKA PUASA WITH FRIENDS AGAIN! (Maybe you don't know why I'm so happy about it,go read my previous post "My 1st time in my lifetime!")

3RD : MY LITTLE ANGEL SENT ME HER LITTLE KAWAII PICTURE IN FACEBOOK CHAT! With a title! Just For You! I just reached home,Open my chat box,AND  TADAAAAA SUPRISE~!! THANK YOU MY LITTLE ANGEL >3< MUACKS!

Today really like all the heavy burden been throw to the ocean already..Oh ya..I guess everyone that support Dato Lee Chong Wei must be very emo now..But he tried his best,He did his best..and I really don't know why! Those HATERS,WHAT THE ********?! Dato LCW lost his match,they blame him for not winning because they cant get the FREE ICE CREAM?!GO GET A LIFE! YOU DON'T EVEN HAVE THE RIGHT TO BARK YET! LICK MY SHOE KID! SHAME ON YOU! NOT EVEN WORTH CALLING AS MALAYSIAN,NOT EVEN WORTH TO CALL AS MALAYSIA DUST ALSO! GET LOST =.="


WE AS MALAYSIAN WILL ALWAYS SUPPORT YOU DATO LEE CHONG WEI! NEVER GIVE UP! STAND FIRM IN THE STAGE IN 2016 AGAIN YAR! ^_^

So today thats all! I continue chat with my angel luh! Have a happy day and puasa yar~! :DD

2-August-2012 A wonderful day for Him and Her

Today early morning woke up around 9am,have been thinking to do my vocabulary,to be honest,I've got no idea what to do at all and today need to pass up.Well I'll just let it be.My class start at 12pm,move out at 11.30am reach college around 12.05pm lecturer just starting to give us question to do.Today paragraph topic is about "Someone I admire in college" CHEH~!! I thought someone that I admire..so I write about our Academic reading and writing lecturer,when she came near me and ask who I'm writing,I replied " Of course Ms.Sundary!" she replied " OK ka chun u get A+ " Haha. Got 1 of my friend write about me,Omg?I'm so touchie ^_^ glad i met this friend also!

So we're finish these homework at 1pm,and probaly it's our las class soon,So we're gonna have a GROUP PHOTO!
 

Here is my group! Look at me! Look AT ME! Like not yet wake up zz.. and the friend that write about me is the black shirt guy,his name is Farid Danial ^_^

This is our classmate!


  

After class of course go eat,but all my friends puasa so left me and another friend,he is malay but he say its ok he can accompany me.Yay~ No nid eat alone hehe.After eat full full,Let's go home :)

Reached home 1st thing need to do what?Of course find my little angle ^_^ ~ She told me she will be back at 3.30pm,so I just wait at there and watch my one piece anime! She online at 3.50pm.

Me and Her Moment

Ok so..It's all bout caring each other and understanding each other what she/he needs and wants..Today she alone at her room because her roomate left to work 4 or 3 days she didnt follow.So its My chances! I'm telling her that "I will always accompany you ^_^ by ur side,i mean that side,not beside" haha and she tell me that she understand what I'm telling her.But then..she ask me not to treat her so good..of course I'm asking why?! she replied she dont know how to say.

For me..treating someone you like..there is no reason that not to do so.Of course you wan to let He/She knw that you treat them good right?That just how i show my care to her.. By her side,ask how is she,share my thoughts and her thoughts..

But then,she reveal her reason..that is she will easily fall in love with him(me)..and I'm telling her,Loving each other there is no wrong at all,and I'm love her since the 1st time I met her though,Love at the 1st sight?

She asked me,do i remember how i introduce myself at the 1st time..seriously I'm not really so remember though! haha but It's like related to my name,Ka Chun then Chun word means handsome in chinese,so I'm using the word I'm handsome chun and they all laughed haha!

She telling me that,she knew I like her quite early already,she dont know the exact time though,she test me when she before go to her class,she will ask like " I really got de lor?I'm going de lor?nothing to say?" and of course I'm telling her "Ok la I will Miss You~ " so she knew that the moment I like her.

But she always give me the response "==" and "....".. these symbols made me feel like so EMO! because she didnt show any response at all,or maybe she thought lame?very frustrated when facing these.This is all just because she don't know these feeling would come..and she don't know how to response him(me).

She also said that i tested her many times too,like future Q&A.Because i  want to know who is it to be your future boyfriend look like..of course need some tips!

But I'm the one so stupid didn't realize that she knew it.She say..I'm still didn't know much more bout what she really wish for.

She said " accept her 100% of her.. treat her good, nicely, gently.. don LIE to her..believe in her"

after she said this,I'm really don't know what to tell her..really don't know..I don't wan just to give her a blank paper promises..if you want me to promise,of course its easy! I promised but i didn't do it..I wish you to judge me by how i treat you when I'm together with you but not just a promises..

Now it's the epic part..She asked me whether is it a right time to have a relatioship..so i gave her 2 choices,Positive or Negative.

Positive is you will always know there is someone for you, whatever you do you say ,anything! He will be there for you.

Negative is mostly is effected your mood.
(This is my opinion only)

She said that negative wont effect her,just don't do things that will hurt each other is ok..she's so tough =_=" SUPA WOMEN!

So i asked her to decide for is it a good time to have a relationship or not.She say her family ask her don't too soon..well it's ok,let's let things go smoothly.. ^_^

She asked again what if she didn't ask him straight bout his target,Wow..really..if she didn't straight to the point.I Don't Know when only I confess to her..but I'm glad that she asked :)

She ah! Gave me this answer! "wish u good luck.. haha.. go chase her if u 1 her 2 ur gf.. once it gone don cry haha" walao~! Sad! So Sad! She look like giving me a bad omen like I will fail..so depressed!I tell her I sad then she said ok she take back what she said.Then sudden the brain work more faster and realize that..

Is it that word means ask me to chase her faster, if not later on she gone don't regret?

She replied "See? knew u will know what i meant"

haha Ka Chun so stupid ^_^

Let's continue bout she dont know how to show her feeling..she said she don't know how to express her feeling toward me yet..She tell me that I will know how she feel..I wish I didn't get the wrong one!! haha

She said something that touch me that night..
"well she just think.. will he be her future bf.. ?? did she found?since she never been in a relationship b4"

"she really hope too.. the 1st 1 is forever him.. dat y i don 1 so fast in a relationship"

"sumtimes i ask myself.. did i really found him as the future 1.. no so fast gua.."

These words really,made me flashback my 1st time,Like SHIT ==" so I won't treat someome like my 1st!

Then I'm telling them shes my angel that cure my heart,and let me forget the past. :) I always rmb she is the one i love for now..

She replied (^_^) Instead of "==" or "..." WHAT A HUGE CHANGES! MIRACLES! OH GOD!

She always tell me that "just remember it.. may b u donno y she keep on mention the same thing.. but some day u will know"

In my mind,I'm keep asking myself..WHy?..WHY?..Ok i get it..
She worry about her self sickness..what kind of sickness i don't wan to mention it,still need abit privacy..but in my mind,these word appeared..

"if u say about
shes a burden..and sickness,,
if they really been together
let pass the present happily
and let the future come only decide"

"im serious here
about sickness,let it be
rmb,he will stay by ur side
always
be happy,smile~ dont sad"

She cried because it's too touching..(Oooo...he didn't he was that great seriously..I found that,only she felt that I'm a great guy..In her I am who I am.. Thank you my little angle <3 )

"Everyone sure got something not perfect in their life
accept it.
and live with the one that care you
and not being about or blame your sickness
there is nobody fault when u get the sickness
who laugh at people that have sickness is worst than trash
be proud :)
u still got a long journey to go
it's still early to give up yet"Hey little angel~ If you're reading this~ I just want to let you know~ You're wonderful~You're Lovely~I will always by your side,Smile always like you do~Don't worry Be Happy :)

With Love ;- Ka Chun ^_______^

1-August-2012 Drama Presentation day! ;D awww yeah!

 Today could be the most efficient day for me,All my shirts and pants still at dobi shop,so today i went to take it at around 11.13am,rush rush rush to the dobi shop and took my shirt and rush rush rush rush back to home to get change and ready for my 12pm class! Well! I reached before my lecturer! Woohoo?haha!

Learnt a big mistaken concept how to write a paragraph in essay,If the question ask about "Effect" we should talk about all about effect! and not about cause! when the question ask about "Cause",then only you can write about what thing happened.

Actually I'm still kinda blur haha but I get it I guess >~<.While I'm writing the paragraph one of our lecturer ex student came and gave our lecturer some snack name "Dates"! In malay they called it "Kurma"! I got the picture!
This is the Kurma aka Dates! Come from..Sunda?=_=" Dont know where is it!

Neh I'm holding it,It was my 1st time you know?!Thought what kind of seeds LOL haha


Inside got a seed,1st bite you will felt so hard,but later on u chew it,It's Sweet!!! yum yum~ I ate 2 only though!

Class finished at 2pm,and our drama presentation start at 2pm also! So me and my team members rush to the class and ready for the video! Oh by the way~Lecturer let us choose either you want to record as video or live action also can,so we decided to use video~ But too bad,the video size kinda biggy! Not sure if could fit in this blogger.I guess our video can say quite....not bad?nah!~ nvm! at least I look nice in the video! haha!

Class finished at 4pm.I've been thinking what to do..and suddenly my just now lecturer phone call me ask me that could i go back to just now the class,she need help,so i going back to 3rd floor and see what happen,OWh~ it's our lecturer got too many stuff to carry,so Ka Chun help her to get some and walk to her office! and after cuti raya she promised give me Biscuit Raya~!!! weeeeee! ^_^ share you some yea!

Done with the carry stuff! Let's go home~ Today sister not at home,so I also lazy cook,So I went to bazaar ramadhan to buy food! Look what i bought?! ^~^

It's DAGING MASAK RENDANG! WITH DAGING MASAK GULAI! NOM NOM NOM~!! :O

When you have a nice food,what else?Of course a nice drink!! It's CENDOL with gula melaka~! It's my 1st time too! Inside got the green jelly thing,taste like red bean also haha!

Yup,that's all for today! Let's see whether i could upload the video or not :) Do you have a nice day today? Is it a happy day for you or a sad day?Don't worry! ^_^ Be? Happy! Like my parent said "Life is kinda like a mountain,sometimes it's straight up sometimes it's straight down" Well Life is unpredictable! Let's enjoy your journey with a BIG SMILE~!